I’m probably the last person that would typically write a post like this. While I’m good at reacting during a crisis, I’ll be the first to admit, sometimes day-to-day stressors just get to me, especially when it seems like so many of them keep piling, one on top of the other. Probably one of the toughest lessons I’ve had to learn spiritually is to just be still. Probably the toughest thing I’ve had to learn to do while pregnant is to wait on God.
Let’s face it, waiting on anything is not my strong suit…I think growing up in America has taught me to be very self-reliant and impatient. After all, this is the land of drive-thru’s and self-checkout lines. This is an area that I have to submit to the Lord – oh, and didn’t I mention, I’m not so great at submission either. I’ve always worked a job…since before I’ve had a work permit…in college I worked 3 jobs to make ends meet, and try to pay school bills. Can anyone relate?
It happened this week, as I was reading some Scriptures – have you ever been unable to get a really convicting verse out of your head until you read that passage? Well, I couldn’t turn my brain off until I began to read Psalm 46. Verse 10 says, “Be still and know that I am God.” The words “be still” struck me in a new way. I thought, “But I don’t know how to be still.”
Then it struck me, what if that’s the point. Not that I have to do anything. I’ve done what I can do, now I just need to sit back and let God work, instead of becoming so frustrated when things don’t happen in the order and/or timing I think they should. It’s because God is working out something way better on my behalf.
I think that human nature tends to see obedience as a magic formula. We have the mindset that says, “Ok, God, I’ve done what you’ve asked, now hurry up.” What we miss so often that if we’re not surrendering, we’ve missed the point of obedience – surrender. Don’t get me wrong, there is an action part of obedience, but there is also a patience that must quiet our souls in the meantime. So while you’re waiting on that job interview, that ministry opportunity, that miracle, or even that vacation, sit in His Presence. He wants to restore you, and that involves you letting him be who He is.
A wise friend once told me to not ask God “why?”, but instead to ask, “Lord, who do you want to be to me in this situation that You could not be to me in any other.”
Waiting on Him,